A Player’s Words: I love WOWsun / 2011-10-16
Last night we held a small party, sharing the things that we most care and expect, including affection, family and career. When it was my turn, I hesitated for a while. After seconds of silence, I said my favorite is world of warcraft. I love it and this kind of affection is beyond any other expectations. I said to my friends that recently I became anxious. Nameless desire arises, and for me nothing is more important than WOW. The happiness and satisfaction of affection, family and career are not more significant than that wow brings me. That doesn’t mean I care about nothing but wow but mean I attach myself to wow closely. Wow’s place in my heart is beyond any other things. It is source to drive me ahead; even my work and bright future can be given up. Before I finish my narration, my friends have disturbed me and persuade me into leaving the game.
Recently I suffer from anxiety often. This kind of anxiety comes from my inability to return to wow though I love wow. My dream is sleeping, why not wake it up? My dream is still related to wow but the dream is hard to be realized for a long time. I understand responsibility, family expectation, sense of achievement, and family are more related to my life. I hope one day I could do what I love to. Those celebrities who often appear in metro, on TV, in bottom of society, in upper class of society, are able to do what they want. They host and present in various BBS and summits. They are able to do what they want. They state their own opinions, logics, dreams, and concept and try to put their theories into practice. I can not understand why the things they love are same with the things they have to do. They are doing what they like and at the same time they are doing what they should. But my hobby cannot reach to this extent.
Is it right or wrong to play wow? It is hard to say. The criterion to balance between right and wrong is not only. So how can others make such a judgment that playing wow is not good? But after decision, I still hesitate to choose the game. Like most of other common people, I am not brave enough to choose game instead of life. I have to do what I should. I am a coward, an anxious coward.
Looking back to my wow career, many things swarm into my mind. Several years ago, when I saw a scene of wow for the first time, I was deeply attracted by this game. That is a scene of Azuremyst Isle with dark blue picture, little hills. Looking from the hills, the background is endless, so magnificent. At that time I really wanted to know what it is like of the boundless boundaries. Then I decided to experience and explore myself. For more than one year, I was a green hand. Because of my bad skills, I was always warned by other experienced players. There is a period that I encounter financial crisis, trust crisis, academic crisis. It costs me a long time from green hand to guild leader. I also have made many contributions to the guild. I have to say I love wow. I am willing to give up myself for the sake of this game. I appreciate Blizzard very much for it is blizzard that makes me happy in my life.